Pushing Wheels

It's tough to describe what it mean to be on wheel chair which leads to the situation that it will make you dependent on others.
I have seen this on TV and hospitals but never realized the fear and pain till I was on the verge of facing it but fortunately not. I remember that morning when in amidst of all the months tensions and frustration there was hope of joy of meeting my best buddies after year and was so excited. But soon this excitement changed to extreme fear. while working I got pain in back due to which I can't even move and becomes horror when the   pain restricted me even to talk. That paralysed state was enough to make me beg to god for recovery.
My plan cancelled, I was on bed lying and disconnected myself entirely from world. At that time, Those tensions, fights, arguments and now this fear and disappointment were making throwing me into doubts whether I could stand on my feet or not. Thankfully yes but making my friends wait for me long and annoyed and angry. I don't know whether they understood me or not.